sisters

My lovely pledge class on initiation morning, after being named an official GAMMA PHI BETA!

being in a sorority has been the absolute BEST part of chapman university so far. i know what your thinking, amy as a sorority girl? yah, i didnt believe it either. I came in thinking nahh i dont think ill be in one, thats just not me. i decided to go through rush week, just to see what it was like and meet some new girls. boy was i surprised! sororities at chapman are unlike any of the stereotypes you hear. (well, we have some certain ones who seem like it...) no we are not party animals, and no we are not sluts. The minute i stepped into the gamma phi room, and heard the girls seeing their little song about joining, i immediately lit up. these girls were SOOO much fun to be around, and were all so welcoming and genuine, i was totally in love with gamma phi. I went through rush week praying that they would invite me back, and they sure did :)

I have never been so excited to open an envelope. It held my invitation to join the sorority, and i was sooooo excited. over the past few months, I've gained friendships & bonds beyond what i could have imagined. these girls are not just friends, they are sisters. and sisters they will always be. there's something about being sisters with someone, knowing all the same secrets as each other, and loving something both so much, that brings you so close. a sister is ALWAYS there for you, and that kinda bond i know i will cherish for the rest of my life. most of my best friends here at chappy are gamma phi's, and it brought us even closer. going through initiation to know what all our secrets are, made me even more excited to grow with amazing girls for the next 4 years by my side. To help out my community AND have amazing friends? Im so excited about it. and ill be historian this next year, so im already getting involved! To wear my letters, knowing the secret meaning of them, is the best feeling, and i have so much pride for the sorority that is impacting me in ways i couldnt have imagined. so call me a sorority girl if you want, but im absolutely in love with it and im proud to call myself a gamma phi. :D

P-R-I-D-E in the house of GPHIB! :)

love in IIKE,

ames

What would you do?

just a little something to think about...

"what would you do if you knew you could not fail?"

My mom has that up in our kitchen, and every time I see it, I think of something that I really wanna do. But of course its always something extreme and unrealistic. Like when she first put it up, i told her, "I would ask andy roddick to marry me, thats what i would do!!" hahaha. but thinking about, there is so many things on a daily basis that I could apply to this question.

But its actually really interesting to think about...what would you do? and why the heck arent you doing it right now anyway? sure you may fail, but how will you ever know if you dont take a chance? On the surface this concept seems pretty cliche, but ACTUALLY thinking about what you would do, is such a cool feeling. So tomorrow im gonna think of one thing that i would do if i knew it would be a success, and I'm gonna see what happens...

who knows, maybe ill be Mrs. Roddick :)

Future?

I'm currently struggling between the present and the future. I currently have no idea what I want to major in. I came into college certain that journalism and writing was for me, that I would be extremely successful having the dream job of a photo journalist traveling the world and impacting the lives of others. Yet here I am now, halfway through my first semester, already planning on switching majors. Why? Because I'm freaking out about my future and my career path. I studied the journalism department and a little bit, and the idea of writing for the paper just doesn't interest me, I simply just wanna write on my own and not be confined to deadlines or detailed assignments. So that does that automatically erase the idea of being a journalist in my future? I really have no idea at this point. I know that when I put my mind to something and I work hard enough for it, I can obtain it. But realistically, I need to major in something I can really enjoy AND have a possible career path...

But what is that major? I'm researching the public relations and advertising department, I'm looking at being a sociology major, I'm even considering creative writing. I'm so lost because I'm making myself believe that the major I choose determines my future. I'm the kind of person, for lack of a better word, LOVES to do what i LOVE. I need to be completely passionate about something in order to give it 100%. For example, I exercise more than i study in college. I wake up every morning at 7 am and run the track with friends and go to the gym and play tennis because thats something I KNOW is bettering my chances of improving my tennis game and my overall fitness level. So how do i direct that to academics? I'm hoping that once I find a major i actually enjoy, that I will commit to it...I'm currently just having trouble committing to one major because, ill admit it, I'm afraid that it might be the wrong one. I'm having second thoughts about the major I used to be so passionate for, and am now considering random majors that never crossed my mind...

When is it just gonna "hit" me? When am I just gonna know what's right for me? I know i have to go out and discover it, It's just weird because I'm used to being so set on everything in my life and content with what I'm doing. Now im taking random classes and trying to see what it is i really enjoy... Why can't there just be an AMY major? HAHA. :)

COLLEGE!

 (I'm sitting in one of those windows)

YAY :) i finally started a blog. I've always wanted to do this, but never really got around to it. I love journaling and yeah I do it from time to time, but online blogging seems so much easier. I dont even know how this works... I don't know if people actually read these? Well if you are reading this, I hope I at least know you because that could be really creepy if you dont...haha. But then again, if you do know me, might be kinda weird too...oh well :) Either way I think this is really cool...and because I love procrastinating on homework and stuff, so this is awesome haha. 

I'm sitting in the library of my beautiful school right now. My view from where I'm sitting? The center of campus which is filled with students laying on the lawn or sitting by the fountain. Students seem so happy here, as if california sun just makes them so happy and gives them enthusiasm for life. The fountain is by far my favorite spot on campus. At night it has multi-colored lights and students think its funny to run around in it or hop from rock to rock. And on the weekends, people REALLY think its funny to run around in it at late hours...haha I'm sure you can guess why. I really can't believe how pretty this place is. I feel like I'm on a TV show. (and no not on the OC haha) But I walk around campus and I absolutely love looking around at everything. The structures are brand new, the sculptures around campus are pretty entertaining to look at, the students are smiley and happy, the grass is perfectly green, the various fountains are beautiful, and the football field is shiny and new, and just screams out school spirit. I just feel so blessed when I walk around here. I'm finally getting to the point where I can walk around campus and wave to several people I know as I walk by, something in high school that I would constantly be able to do. I felt weird coming into college not being able to walk around know at least 10 people on my way to class. The saying, "small fish in a big pond" came to mind. I'm used to feeling like a big fish in a big pond, something I'm currently striving for. Is it weird that I feel like I have to be as involved as possible wherever I go? I don't feel satisfied until I really feel like I make an impact somewhere. I just can't sit back and watch other students lead things and make a change on campus when I'm not doing the same thing. Sure, I'm part of a sorority now and very involved with that and am a member of the tennis team. But somethings missing...and I'm hoping this "something" turns into an opportunity sometime soon. But then again, I have to chase down an opportunity, I can't just sit back and wait for it to come to me. But I know God has some sort of greater plan for me, something waiting to happen...

Alright well I better get back to studying, this whole blogging thing is awesome because I can totally procrastinate :) haha not a good thing, but something I love doing so its all good. Back to reality in the life of a college freshman. 

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